Showing posts with label qarrtsiluni. Show all posts
Showing posts with label qarrtsiluni. Show all posts

Tuesday, November 08, 2011

Poetical friends

I've really rather a lot of these, but this is about just two of them for now.


First, Plutarch has replied to my question about following swallows over at Compasses.


... to follow the most delicate of birds, which drinks
as it skims the water, crosses oceans and continents,
feeds on flies, perches on telegraph wires
like musical notations, knows where to go, where to land
and when. Its nests are mythic architecture.

His poem is called A ball of string, so as you might imagine not only swallows but other themes emerge.  It's a beautiful, visionary poem which sweeps broadly through time and space, to the edge of clouds and down into labyrinths, belying the human limitations he laments.  To me it forms a fine diptych with one he recently had published in Qarrtsiluni, where he posits that

To monitor the flight of birds
in consideration of what is received
(for which we should be truly thankful),
to count and name their variations,
their prey and predators,
is reason enough to be on Earth.

I'm inclined to agree.

~

Second, these came in the just the other day:



I've corresponded with and come to know and love Teresa and her work for a year or so now.  I have both her previous books of poems, and found them wonderful, and when she asked me if she could have a photo she saw here for the cover of her next, Itching, itching, I was honoured and delighted.  I've been waiting for my copy impatiently.

In the first poem there is an artist, who 

took pain and shaped a vision

and this is what Teresa does.  There are a number of artists in these pages, like the metal artist, who

labors
into the night, twists
the thin strands, presses
with tools of mysterious use

and who

rubs 
shine back into the hammered medallion
of blackened silver

There is music, too, especially jazz, woven through her writing everywhere, a kindred spirit appears unexpectedly 'to borrow earphones' and then stays, in a sensual encounter, incidentally there is 'Mingus in the other room', and elsewhere

chords 
that thumbed the G, spun it straight in
to hope's solar plexus

This kind of music seldom exactly has savage-beast-soothing charms, though; like the love and passion of which it forms a part it is often a lacerating, flaying experience, so a man's 'easy singing'

rusts a scream onto bare arms

There are moths and a sinister, metaphorical cat, there is raw physicality in plenty - chests, throats, teeth, bones; we find ourselves up at 3 in the lonely morning more than once. This is pain-filled stuff indeed, (more so than in her two previous volumes, I would say) but love is also exalting and exulting, even if it is absence and loss which reveals this; the voice of the beloved lost brother to whom the book is dedicated 

... splashed 
down the channels of my ears...

and she longs to hold on to 

everything you ever touched, the golden light that rests
on places where your arms passed through.

Time and tide only increase the store of beauty of those we love -

nieces came
and went, growing lovelier with the storms

(how I love that one!)

This often isn't easy writing, but so what?  It is sometimes hard to follow, as in the appositely titled An upside down vision, you -

... lapels flying and clean grin
for friends, lover mother, then wavering
at the edge like reed, windblown
a whole block of flats, shimmying in streetlight,

but syntactical ambiguity can express and enrich a complex emotional landscape.

And sometimes it's hard to confront such an onslaught of intense, sometimes violent, synaesthetic sensory impressions, the omnipresence of  pain and shadow and the lightning flashes of ecstasy, which are in essence a refusal to experience life by any half-measures, no matter how much it hurts.


The title poem starts with the poet

At the sink in nettles to my elbows

which makes one wince, of course, but it is the sting, the itch, the pain, the acid taste of

... still-warm rhubarb that sets my teeth on edge

which needles and drives and provokes the creative act;

searching a stony streambed, we seek the heart
of all that water, the salt and darkness, the emptiness

that billows jewelled nets strung from every part 
of this place where nothing misses me.

If I didn't know her a bit, and if I didn't know enough to know that one need not confuse the writer with the places where they take you, I might worry about Teresa.  But that kind of worrying about can be a sign of smallness, resistance, jealousy even; that I can't quite go to those places on my own, but need her to take me there. It is a privilege to share something of the vision and experience of someone who has

...yew
along the front path, violets down deep, forsythia, mint she'll never

be free of, bleeding heart, the sounding out of poems fresh
and mysterious, a source she'll never tire of sipping.

I hope she never does tire of it.

(Itching, itching is published by Finishing Line Press )








Sunday, February 27, 2011

Heather Dohollau at Qarrtsiluni

Please go and read my friend Heather Dohollau's three poems in French and English, translated by the author, at Qarrtsiluni.

Heather, who lives in St Brieuc, where I work, is an extraordinary woman who has led a remarkable life and who writes very beautiful poems in French and English.  I could say a great deal more about her. but it's really much better to go and read  for yourselves.  And also, please, listen to the recording of her reading them, which is wonderful (thanks Dave, who made my efforts with a tiny laptop and supermarket-bought microphone sound so good), and which also contains extra biographical information.

If you have any comments could you leave them there rather than here? You don't need to be signed in or anything.  I'm very pleased and proud to have been involved with this, but credit where it is due.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Saints Day



We've always rather liked to extend our birthdays over two or three days.  Not a question of wild partying, or lavishing with piles of extravagant gifts, but simply of nurturing an expansive and relaxed feeling of celebration, gratitude, that it's a special time, a step outside of the ordinary.

This is helped for me that the following day is always my saint's day, and since I've lived here, though the tradition of saints' days is on the wane, Ste Lucie is still one that is remarked on, and on the 13th December someone or other usually wishes me bonne fête. One day I hope to go to Scandinavia for it.

I wrote about what St Lucy's day means to me a couple of years ago hereJonathan Wonham, he of Connaisances and latterly Icebus, left a small, incredibly precious jewel, beside it.  Such treasures people do leave here, I find it quite wanton and profligate of them...

St Lucy's Day

Just on the threshold of sight
stands the one who knows the way
whenever the light of a hundred days
is ground in the crucible of one night.

~~~

I was quite busy on Sunday.  I had parcels to parcel and a teaching assignment to write - as always with any area of formal study I've ever engaged in, I began the on-line TEFL course in a surge of enthusiasm and energy, thinking 'no sweat!', then grew dissipated and drifted, then suddenly found myself with a looming deadline or a price to pay, and now am rather enjoying the pressure of getting it finished just in time and by the skin of my teeth.  'Twas ever thus... It snowed a little in the morning, and was pale and grey and sad, but the sun came out in the afternoon despite the lean wind, and Mol and I had a walk out of it.

And, by chance or a nice serendipity, Dave at Qarrtsiluni e-mailed and said could I do the audio recording for the Saints photos I'd sent them a while back, for their excellent Words of Power edition.  So I retired to the blue room and spoke to thin air about saints.  The result is at here at Qarrtsiluni.

I have mixed feelings about hearing myself like this.  Heaven knows, anyone who knows me wouldn't hesitate to say that I'm fond enough of the sound of my own voice; introversion does not preclude loquacity.  However, public speaking is simply not something I'm accustomed to; my education did not include much in the way of spoken presentation or any communication skills beyond writing, and I've never liked my recorded voice, I don't even like talking to my Australian brother on the 'phone when there's the satellite echo and I can hear myself.  But the unfamilarity of and recoil from a sustained recording do add to the fascination, and it was an interesting exercise to talk from notes in this way; teaching has made me better at pacing myself, not rushing or mumbling unclearly as is my natural wont, and I found I relaxed into it as I went on.  Overall, the addition of the audio podcasts in Qarrtsiluni adds a huge extra dimension, and it really is worth taking a bit of time to listen to the contributors' readings.  And yes, I am aware that as a Brit in a largely American milieu one does get a bit of totally unearned extra kudos!

Last time I did this, I spoke into the camera mic of the Canon, which gave quite a good quality result.  (Dave then strips the audio from the video file, because he's a clever bugger and knows how to do such things...).  Trying out the Lumix, despite it's much vaunted super-dooper video function, I thought the result was muffled and disappointing.  I tried the cheapcam and thought it was crisper, but when it was shipped it turned out to have a rather hideous crackle, which combined with the rather infantile staccato crackle in my  natural voice, is a bit harsh.  However, Dave's done wonders ironing out the faults with clever software, for which I'd like to offer many thanks and appreciation for his talents and patience.

~~~

So, still no pictures to speak of.  Next time...

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Wheel at the watermill. Sometimes. Q. Saved Nut # 5


Unlike the millwheel, still turning.
I am not unfortunate. I am not broken, not beaten, not worn out, not depressed nor depressive. I am blessed and I know it and I count the ways. Sometimes things hurt, sometimes they strain and crack and fray, but they can be repaired, put back together. Being, in general, one of the stupid spoiled and happy ones, I pull myself together. Just sometimes, the effort of doing so leaves me tired, is all.
~~~
Process notes for the poems are up at Qarrtsiluni. Rather long, but we enjoyed ourselves.
~~~
Saved Nut #5
Waldo. The kind of rather confessional, from-the-heart narrative I have ended up not doing much of, mostly because I quickly realised I didn't have that much of interest to confess. But it was one of those times when I felt I had said just what I wanted to say in the way I wanted to say it, without being too long about it. Only edited for a bit of punctuation and grammar. Cutting this old stuff is harder than I thought, largely because it's difficult for the person writing now to intervene with the person writing then. The act of writing in itself changes one. Sometimes.

Friday, February 06, 2009

Another possibly unintelligible abstract image, something to be very pleased about, Molly in pink.



The collection of pictures of the watermill in various guises of snow, ice and flood is growing, but I am struggling to find an original and appealing way of presenting them, and as my other half has found compelling reasons to be on the computer a lot of the time (which, overall, as he was quick to out point out, amounts to probably a blink of the eye in comparison with the hogging of it on my part over its lifetime), I decided to add to the series of, I hope, puzzling abstract images instead.
~

Further, lest it seem that I have been rather drearily miserable of late, here is something that is causing me to dance a little dance of joy. Over at Qarrtsiluni, a collaboration with marvellous, talented, inspired and inspiring Anna the Apprentice. Trouble was, we got so carried away with our enthusiasm that we wrote extensive, digressive and even illustrated process notes, which the editors, rather than telling us not to be daft and go away and cut them right down, decided to publish separately. So the poems and pics are over there now, but if you want to know how we did it, you'll have to wait till Monday. But you can hear Anna's lovely melodious Scottish tones, and myself sounding like a petulant five-year-old, reading the poems aloud.
~

And finally, specially for darling Hliza, Molly in pink lampshade, which actually looks rather more red, but matches quite nicely the pompoms on the shawl in which she was luxuriating. We've been doing quite a lot of that lately. Not quite as photogenically gorgeous as Hliza's own sleeping cherub, but rather cute...
~

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Thirty winter words, a bit of bragging, and what would I like for my birthday?

A small December face, patchy-pink
lips drawn back, cold-shocked, as children,
who trust till something bites, often are.

Opening chimney doors,
or momentary sun through eyelids,
orange gratitude for flames.


(Hyphenated words count as one in my thrity words rule. The log is from a windblown down photinia hedging shrub, red in death as in life.)
~~~
Quartsiluni have posted another photo, here. I like this one; it was taken at St Jaoua's chapel in Finisterre, I have an odd fondness for these cruder examples of polychrome wood sculpture, of uncertain age and provenance. Some of the poems preceding it are really excellent too, I'm proud have something appearing with them.
Also, lovely Gino has published another ghazal of mine at the Ghazal Page. The radif challenge was 'sugar', and it's on this page. Crafty Green Poet (Juliet Wilson) has one there too!
~~~
What would I like for my birthday tomorrow? Endless time to catch up with everyone on my feeds and blogroll, and generally to apply myself to all the exciting creative things that keep coming my way. It won't happen.

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Elephant heads, and a nice award.

The heads of elephant garlic which have been featuring quite a lot here this season have got a look in at here at qarrtsiluni, where one of them in a state of transformation, which is to say undressing itself, has been published. Thanks to Dave for polishing it up a bit too.


We thought they probably shouldn't be allowed to flower, but they were so lovely we left them, then cut them off and brought them into the house in a big jar on the windowsill.


By yesterday they were beginning to smell a bit, well, garlicky, so they had to end their days on the compost heap. The gargantuan bulbs themselves we have started eating: roasted with spuds, or sliced or crushed in soups and sauces. They are delicious, but moderation is advised. The flavour is very mild.


~~~

I have been given an award! Crafty Green Poet (she's crafty, she's green and she's a poet, and very good at all of them) has given me this one.


I don't usually get these, and just assumed this was the kind of blog that didn't. I didn't really mind as the problem with them is you have to make invidious choices between your friends, and anyway, as the sort of kid who hated sponsored events because you had to go around badgering your sponsors, I'm a bit disinclined to do the legwork. But still, it's very nice.

I'm supposed to choose seven other bloggers to award this to. As it happens, I find it very difficult to choose between any of the blogs I visit, because I think you're all 'brillante' in your own way, and what I love is the variety. However, what I'll try to do is select the seven blogs most recently added to my blogroll , and say a little about them. This also had the useful function of prompting me to tidy up my blogroll, since I'd got very lazy about that since I started using feeds.


Windy Skies (India) - Anil lives in Bombay. He posts fairly infrequently, but often at length. Wonderful writing, seems to me to have an insider's knowledge with an outsider's wonder at it all, and subtle, illustrative photos, dreamy, gentle, all in extraordinary light. Train journeys across India, the window his companion, discoursing on Indian cinema, memory, custom, human geography. I love this blog!

Works well ( UK, and occasionally France) - Barrett Bonden. The endless fascination of practical things: motor bikes, septic tanks, kids scooters, garlic crushers, all with a good salting of dry humour. And more besides, books, refelctions, reminiscenses from a clearly very clever man, with French connections. I always get too caught up chatting here.

My mark of humility (USA)- Elizabeth. A family blog, very loving and happy atmosphere. One of the really nice things about Elizabeth, though, is that she's a very appreciative, conscientious, kind blogger. She thanked me for leading her to another blogger who's work she was enjoying, which pleased and surprised me. and her computer and someone she knows have just been struck by lightning!

From the House of Edward (USA) - Edward is a gorgeous dog, who lives with Pamela, who's a designer. This blog is a total charm and nostalgia fest; as well as the adorability of Edward and his adopted sister Apple, there's much civilised chat, books and poems, and the most fabulous collection of pictures of the kind you remember from childhood and haven't seen for years: Victorian paintings and children's book illustrations, art nouveau fantasies in dolly mixture colours. I don't know where Pamela finds them, but they're so beguiling, and it's all beautifully put together.

Kolokolo - (Czech Republic) Julia is an American living in Prague, and so another displaced person, which always draws me. Despite having a five-year old and very small baby in tow and working from home, and playing the piano and more, she still sometimes finds time to blog! I have an especial affection for this one in fact because James was my first blogging baby; there was a short post left there late one night saying, in effect, I'm having contractions and just off to the hospital, see you after the birth, which I thought showed devotion to the cause above and beyond... Oh, and one of her favourite books is 'The Riddle of the Sands', which is rather intriguingly unusual.

Accept all offerings - a new blog from a very old and dear blogging friend. Herhimnbryn was one of my very first visitors, and has always been incredibly lovely, faithful and intelligent in her commenting. Clearly she has been for many, and her original blog, Secret Hill, was deservedly popular. Then she took a longish break, and has now cleaned her palette and come back with this wonderfully stripped-back offering. Saying a lot with a little was always her strong point, a few words, a photo, often black and white, occasionally a video, always eagerly awaited.

Spiralskies - I'm not sure that Jen is such a recent addition, really but I had to get it in. It's one of the funniest on my list, unfailingly, and anyone who has the least recollection of Keith Chegwin must read this post, and must read the comments. Yes, I know there were 64 of them at the last count but it's worth it, you'll see. At a time when I didn't feel at my most like laughing I laughed until the tears ran and I was in danger of fusing the laptop.

I won't go and tell you you've been awarded, if you drop by you'll see, and please feel free to pick up the little badge. Sometimes it seems quite hard work keeping up with everyone, but I do cherish both old and new contacts.
~~~
Molly is much herself, since yesterday really. J and D invited themselves round as they thought we needed it, having been fretting on our own for too long. Mol adores D, mostly because he gives her tidbits, which he was strictly forbidden to do as we've got to be very strict about what she eats; allergic reactions to food can apparently exacerbate the recurrent infections, so she's on a very special and expensive hypoallergenic form of croquette containing little but duck meat, cassava, potato and beetroot. She likes it, but misses prawn crackers, almonds and toast. Anyway, the visit seemed to cheer her up (I put out some bits of potato he was allowed to feed her, so neither of them suffered too much). We've started walking gently again, so I'll start 'Out with Mol' up again very soon. She's back to the vet tomorrow, but they've told me she can have breakfast, so they can't be planning to knock her out again just yet, which is one of the most distressing things, as she has to have a lot of anaesthetic and comes round screaming and very unhappy, and seems to take ages to recover.
So far, so much better. And being grown up about the fun I missed in Hebden Bridge.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Catching up, and elderflower cordial.

Well, there aren't too many standing out accusingly in bold on my feeds now, though there are of course those who've turned up recently who I haven't yet put on my feeds, and those on my feeds I haven't yet put on my blogroll... but I feel as if I'm something like up to speed again.

It's all over bar the splashing at qarrtsiluni, the editorial decision making is drawing to a close. The water-themed edition will continue to be published until well into July, and it's running at an unprecedented two posts a day, because, though we had to make many a heart-breaking decision and pass over much, we still accepted an enormous number, because they were all so delicious! If you haven't visited, or haven't been lately, please go and look. I feel inordinately proud of it, while being fully aware my overall part in it has been small. It's been a marvellous experience, if not always easy, and I still don't know what all its effects will be on me, but I think they'll be significant. It's been nothing but a privilege to work with the my brilliant and indefatigable, inspired and inspirational, co-editor and managing editors, and perhaps most of all with the writers, poets, artists and photographers who submitted work, I've gained glimpses into worlds I'd never dreamed of ...

Other projects and adventures and things to find out about await, ghazals and Mahima's travelling journal among them. More on these later, no doubt. And of course I really should be painting the back wall-plate and pointing the gable-end of the house this summer...

***
Gorgeous, Moon Walking Bee Drunken, with whom, as she is a Texan in the shires of South-East England, and hence a slightly culturally displaced person, I like to flatter myself I have something in common, often comes with me, virtually, on my walks with Mol. In fact, I would like to have more in common with her elegant, witty, informed, literary prose, she really ought to be writing a column somewhere, to say nothing of her knowledge of snickerdoodle and other baking matters. She enquired about elderflower cordial, and the making thereof, so, that process having just been completed, here is the recipe, with illustrations, before the blossoms go over. I love an opportunity to release my inner food photographer!



Ingredients:

1 kg sugar, I use white as it makes a pretty clear cordial and doesn't impinge on the delicate flavour, but I've seen browner sugars suggested, or some honey might be interesting.

850 ml (1 1/2 pints) boiling water

45g (1 1/2 oz, about four tablespoons ) citric acid, you really do need this, I tried doing without and using extra lemons the first time I made it, and it turned out horribly sweet and started to ferment almost immediately. Get it from the pharmacist.

15 to 20 elderflower heads. Don't pick them too green or in bud, they're difficult to separate from the stalks and will taste of cat's pee. The further blown they are the better, though obviously if they've got too many black bits that's not so nice.

2 sliced lemons.



How to make it:

Strip all the little flowers off the stems. This takes ages, c'est un travail de patience, but I am, relatively, time rich and cash poor. Some suggest doing it with a fork, others with scissors, but in my experience, you can't beat just pulling them off with your finger tips. The aim is to get as little stalk in with them as possible. Remember, white bits of elder = ambrosial perfume and flavour worthy to be drunken by angels, green bits of elder = cat pee.

I have to add this process is probably not recommended for any with a pollen allergy, I have a disgustingly robust constitution as regards anything like that but my nose still tickles and a blocked-up headache lurks at the edges of my awareness for a day or two after I've done it. Your fingers become a delightful dusty yellow.
Finally, you end up with a bowl of fairy confetti.



Put the sugar into a big bowl, and pour on the boiling water. It looks a colossal amount of sugar, which makes you realise how much sugar is contained in commercial drinks and sodas. Stir until it dissolves. Stir in the citric acid, elderflowers, and sliced lemons.



Cover the bowl, and leave to stand for about five days, stirring daily. The stirring is quite important as the lemons have a tendency to catch a bit of mould, so keep an eye out for that, fish'em out if they do. It will make the whole house smell heavenly, and is almost worth doing just for that.

Strain once through a sieve, and again through the sieve lined with muslin, or I use kitchen roll, with plenty of changes. Coffee filter's probably a bit too slow and would block.

This makes about a litre and a half, and although it's not so elegant, it's best to store it in the 'fridge in plastic bottles, a large mineral or tonic water water one is ideal. Elderflowers must contain huge amounts of natural yeasts, as all it really wants to do is ferment. The citric acid inhibits this to a point, as does the cool of the fridge, but it is a wild and mercurial brew, so drink it up quick. Shouldn't be too much of a problem. Dilute it to taste of course, perhaps one part to four or five. It's also very good on strawberries and lemon sorbet.


Saturday, May 03, 2008

The waters are rising, the puns are endless

I'm editing qarrtsiluni for two months.

'What do you do' asked Tom, 'if you get poems from people who are way over and above you in intellect and ability?'

In fact this is not so much a possibility as a racing cert. The submissions are flooding in, and almost every one of them seems to be from someone who has been teaching creative writing for a living in a prestigious institution for years, has had several books published, has one prizes and plaudits and awards and nominations and laurel crowns from here, there and everywhere. The way things are going we'll have to select perhaps 10 to 15% for publication, and 99.9% of them are bloody good. The rest are just good.

It didn't help of course that we blithely chose a theme as general and universally popular as 'Water'. Yes, just 'Water'. Had we chosen something cryptic or obscure, everyone would have had to think a bit before coming up with anything, but everyone's done something on water, and they all want to share them. Dammit, every other thing I say or think seems to contain some form of metaphorical reference to water...
But I am not alone. In this task worthy of the Danaides I have been assigned as companion the utterly adorable, enthusiatic, great of heart and of talent Katherine, who is up there with the folks I'm dealing with. And I know I can do it because she believes in me, as Dave and Beth, the permanent editors, must do, who put me up to it. And I want to do it, because I want the experience and I'd be wimping out if I didn't.

Regarding Tom's question.I was somewhat heartened to read this interview with Martin Lammon, whose work I don't know, but who seems to be one of the most driven perfectionists and compulsive revisers of his own work. He says that these days he often shows his work first not to his seasoned old poetical cronies, whose reactions have become a little predictable. but to younger and/or less experienced writers, whose honesty and freshness of response he feels he can better trust. Hopefully, hard work and a little humility, the real kind, not the false, self-denigrating, little me, easily over-awed stuff, will go along way.

However, I think I can only do it if I put most of my other activities here on hold for a bit and give it huge amounts of time and concentration. So regrettably, not only will I probably not find a lot of time to blog, but worse, I can't see myself getting round to everyone else's for a while. I've just looked at my feeds and nearly all of them have gone black already, which makes me whimper with anxiety, especially about those of you who've been having babies and operations and weddings and all manner of other life-changing events. I'll do my best when/if I feel more on top of the qarrtsiluni situation, but till then, please excuse my absence. I'll try to keep up Out with Mol, as I think it's important to my routine and to make the effort to go on observing things outside what's going on in my head.

Come the end of June, I can look forward to the rest of the summer lazing in the shade of the Box Elder tree, posting pretty pictures and writing what I choose, and visiting all my blogging mates and enjoying what they do without any need to judge it and make invidious choices.

So feel free to join the fun, come one come all and the more the merrier, and have a look a look at the call for submissions. Perhaps if any of my dearest friends send stuff in, I might refer it to Katherine for judgement, spineless wuss that I am. Being accepted would put you in some very fine company, being passed over in perhaps even better...
***
Anyway, on the subject of water, soothing to my anxiety was about three hours on the beaches and cliffs with dear Gillian and Barley (aka, Rosie and Porridge the illustrious and fantabulous Bitches about Brittany). Gill, who really has joint honours in scathing wit and self-deprecating no-shit irony, recommended shallow flippancy as an antidote to earnest literary angst, but it's really to late for that. About 46 years too late for me.

Anyway, as you can see, she's got a really cool camera and she's not afraid to use it, so I daresay there'll be some sumptuous shots over at hers. I rather thought I didn't take much in the way of photos when out and about with other people, so I only had cheapcam with me.


However, I'd never been out with another blogger in the presence of rockpools, and we soon both became very absorbed, much to the unappreciative puzzlement of our pooches, who didn't see the point.



Barley walked on this stranded jellyfish, then Molly had a go - no they didn't get stung, Mol didn't really touch it. I don't know whether that improved the compositional arrangement or not.

Indeed, so absorbed were we that we failed to notice the tide coming in; I was irritably trying to remove pieces of waving sea lettuce from above an interesting anemone, when I became aware that as fast as I tried to push it out of the way, more of it, accompanied by volumes of seawater, was rushing in. Molly and I made a big jump, Gill and Barley a big wade. Still at least I didn't lose my trousers, wallet, ID card and ten euros. (Family joke, I won't identify the person to whom this happened to avoid humiliating my male sibling.)


The dogs were really very well-behaved and patient; Barley only tried to bowl Molly over once at the beginning and didn't do it to any people except us, and Mol only growled at Barley twice. Barley ended the occasion by running off and rolling in nicely fermented cow slurry, but that was just before we got into our separate vehicles and went our separate ways, so I was prepared to overlook it.

***

Finally, my lovely sister-in-law ( not to be confused with my lovely sister; my range of epithets is not great and they are indeed both just lovely), who tells me she reads this on the quiet, sent me these pictures of a white peacock, because they reminded her of the dandelion clock in the last post. I don't know who took them, but I thought they were too beautiful to keep to myself. I feel uncommonly blessed that there are people in my life who think of me, read my blog and send me picture's of white peacocks.


***

So now I shall print off a mountain of qarrtsiluni submissions in order to take them outside in the balmy spring weather and peruse them there, using scrap paper from work but while Tom's not paying attention enough to upbraid me for using too much ink. One still reads more attentively from paper, I believe, than spending too much time at the screen.

Thanks for bearing with me, and I'll see you all as soon as I can.

Saturday, April 26, 2008

In the sunken lane

The following is something I submitted for the latest qarrtsiluni edition, which has the mouthwatering and intriguing theme of 'Nature in the cracks'. A lot of people evidently found it tempting, as they received a very large number of submissions, and the ones they've published are of very high quality. They finally decided this didn't make the final cut, though they were very nice about the photos especially, but said they couldn't agree. That's fine, as Jean said about the photos in the last post, acceptance or rejection is not the point. I wasn't too sure about the text myself; it's neither prose nor poetry, and rather rambling and shapeless, like an overwrought (and somewhat morbid) blog post perhaps! So that's what it will be.

In the sunken lane

The sunken lane is a fissure, with no clear beginning nor end, no junction with the road, gouged deep between the fields so that, walking there, cows graze and crops grow above my head. Some half-way down it is an enclosure. A mossy concrete slab covers...what? Something apart, forbidden, circumscribed. It is not a grave, I assume it is a well.

A wilding lilac, mauve in May among yellow broom, stands at its corner; surrounding it are fractured fences of crumbling wood flaked with dull green paint,


friable, lichenous concrete posts,

their surfaces and clefts infibulated with barbed wire

and embossed with the oxidising nodules of iron rivets.

Briars and brambles spring and coil among the untensioned wire,

and ligatures of ivy bind the concrete, like the carved decorations on Victorian tombstones.


The wood is becoming inert and stoney in decay, while the thorny stalks and stems merge with the wires that mimic them. The organic becomes atrophied and mineralised, the man-made, metal and silicate appears vegetal. The boundaries between states are mutable, uncertain here.


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The well is not a grave, but a child might think it one. Death and murder, not altogether shielded, stalk the child's imagination.

" There is a dead body in the old car, Miss! David saw it, there is..."

"Someone was murdered going over the Blue Bridge last night, on her way home from school..."


And yet, and so, the boys appropriated the rusting wrecks of cars in the hollow, through the fence and out of bounds, just as we crossed the Blue Bridge in secret to build camps in the ruined lock-keeper's cottage. Ivy and sycamore saplings colonised the fallen walls, and we made man-traps over holes in its bewildered garden, to catch the bad men.


We crossed the Blue Bridge and skipped across the forbidden lock-gates, far from fearless, daring ourselves on the vertiginous edge of the basin, its stones greened with algae, ferns sprouting from the cracks around its rim. To fall would likely have meant death: I could not swim.

The well is not a grave, yet wells are uneasy, deathsome places. Like darkness by electric light, their necessity in our world has been largely banished by mains water. We fear the bottomless drop of them, their cold blackness, their slimey, inescapable, vertical sides:

" Ding dong bell, pussy's in the well..."

and Little St Hugh, child martyr, found dead in one, victim of a child-killer, blame and penalty for his death laid on the Jews at the beginning of a darkness of unplumbed hatred that submerged Europe.

Springs are clear and bright and healing, the living fountains, bounty from hard rock, images of purity, but about wells we are more ambivalent. Yet they are also sources of deep abundance, of hope and possibility. We pollute them at our peril.


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The lane rises gradually and emerges, peters out, beside the long, kindly field whose hedge is palnted with mirabelle trees. Their blossom is fine and white early in the year, and, spring weather permitting, their amber and ruby fruits are there for the taking in the summer, heavy and glossy and falling in the furrows.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

Reasons to be cheerful

First off, I am orgulous as a peacock because I've got a poem and photos up at qarrtsiluni. It's called 'Cabbage whites', and it came from a walk I did with my sister, niece and nephew-in-law to some local wind turbines. They are in fields on a hilltop, one of which had had oilseed rape in it, which had been harvested, and a huge number of cabbage white caterpillars were in the process of pupating all over the lower part of the wind turbine. It was an odd and oddly moving sight. I took a number of photos and wrote a couple of poems. I sent them both in with pictures, and they accepted one. The other I'll post here in a day or two.

I haven't submitted anything written there before, only photographs, including the first 'Handbook for Explorers' collaboration I did with Joe. If that had been rejected I would have felt entitled to be miffed on his behalf, as he doubtless would have done on mine. As it was, if they had returned both the poems, I was determined to be grown-up and take it in good part but privately accept it as confirmation of what I had always suspected, that my poetry is rubbish. And better writers than I have been turned down by qarrtsiluni. I would have tried not to say sour grapes. I have a huge amount of respect and admiration for both the guest editors, Marly and Ivy, their work and their judgement.

However, they accepted one, with a few editorial reservations about things which they invited me to revise. A rather woolly extended metaphor went nowhere; having had it pointed out I was immediately irritated by it and was able to change it. Some punctuation was sloppy, failed to define ideas as it should. That sorted, we had a three-way discussion about whether a past participle linking back to a modal perfect some lines previously was too much of a strain, and should be replaced by a simple past, which in order to scan would need another syllable, which to my ear didn't really sound so well...

Now this may sound a bit like angels on pinheads but by this time I was beginning to enjoy the process of being edited. It all felt rather flattering, no one, especially no one as clever and special as Marly and Ivy, had ever paid so much attention and taken so much trouble over anything I'd ever written before ( not that I'd ever invited anyone to before...). It was somewhat akin to going into a hairdresser or other beauty professional expecting to be laughed off the premises as a lost cause or hopeless frump, then being taken in hand, one's possibilities assessed, plucked and preened and given a careful and expert makeover, and ending up feeling rather pampered and the better for it.

I was not least impressed by their care and attention since they clearly received a lot of submissions, both of them have other significant and demanding responsibilities, they aren't getting paid for it, and I have the impression that they were finding possibly hurting people's feelings and making them unhappy about their work difficult and invidious.

So thanks, Marly and Ivy, and the q. regulars, and confetti to you too. And I'd have said that even if you'd rejected the poem. ( Oh, and I was allowed to keep my past participle.)

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Other honourable mentions. Jean is doing fantastic things with Picasa collages, involving repeats and rotations and all kind of subtleties. When I try to do subtle it just looks dull, Jean does subtle. Jean is subtle. She thanked me for putting her onto Picasa, and I must thank Joe for putting me onto it. Also check out Andy's dancing leaf, quite enchanting, and a post about a blanket over at Sheila's with a photograph of an interior which I found beautiful and compelling.
Molly is back from having stitches out, and getting full cuddle treatment with Tom on the sofa. While she was knocked out I stayed around, and jokingly suggested to the vet that we should have her coat clipped while she was out for the count at the poodle parlour next door, since she is nearly as recalcitrant about grooming and haircuts as she is about vets. He said, yes, yes good idea, went and grabbed the dog grooming lady and roped her into the job. So now she is the best coiffed she's ever been, all her felty bits gone and in between her toes done and everything. She should be bucketless and back to normal in a week or so. A huge relief.