This is what's been occupying me. The beamed ceiling in a room of my own, as will be. It used to be a cow stable. When we moved here it had the old drinking fountains for the cattle plumbed in, a channel down the floor for cow's effluent, and a very nasty looking stain on the wall. Upstairs, which is now our bedroom, wasn't really upstairs at all, just a kind of hayloft, made from old roofing felt and wormeaten branches. There were bales for straw of uncertain age and a rat's skeleton. Tom fell off the ladder a couple of up there times in our first year, which did him no good really. It wasn't a nice place.
He built the ceiling (and most else of the room, though I did mix and barrow the concrete for the floor...), now I'm painting it.
Blue. Very blue. Turquoise no.3, though it's not as turquoise as I expected, except when it gets in my eyebrows when it looks more so. It's rather toybox blue, woad blue, cerulean, maybe. The blue of lost jewels and of Notre Dame de la Belle Verriere's robe. Perhaps the 'strong blue' of Gudrun Brangwen's coat which she scandalised all by wearing with emerald green stockings (someone, I forget who, wrote a funny essay on that, positing that DH Lawrence was a fetishist for women's stockings...).
It is not a safe decorating colour. But I cannot describe the thrumming below the solar plexus that the sight of this blue gives me. I love the red of the dining room, the soft woody green of the living room, I'm happy enough with the lavenders and purples and heathery colours in the bedroom, and I had half a hankering for some wild and madderish pinks, but this is something else. It is not sad, it is deep.
It's hard work to paint; the beams make the area much greater, and overhead is always more difficult. My hand, arm, shoulder and neck all ache, as it's thick paint and I'm averse to rollers and second coats, using only a two-inch brush to get into all the corners. But it's worth it; going up the ladder is like putting my head into the sky.
And I get to listen to Proust while I'm doing it ...